So this is my second post today. The first one I never published, I was writing from a more emotional place and decided to wait on it.
I went to lunch with a friend. She is one of the most amazing friends a girl can ask for. She totally gets me and can objectively talk though stuff with me.
I have been a total shithead to P. He's amazing that he still loves me! Two months is just to long for us to go with out seeing each other. I have had to much change and craziness for the month of September.
Lately I am really having a power struggle with control. I want to know and control so much in my life. I know it is totally and completely impossible to do this. I am the only person/thing I have any control of. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the future that I stop myself from enjoying all the wonderful things in the present. I feel bad because I know I keep pressuring P to give me answers that he both may not have or is not ready to give me.
I know his trip home and some time together will be freaking great!
And I can chill the heck out :)!
On a side note I got super cute boots today. I can't wait to wear them, I am thinking of wearing them over skinny jeans then night I meet P's parents! Yippy!
Also pintrest is my new favorite obsession! So many cool ideas.
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