Thursday, March 29, 2012

Thankful Thursday, plus some

I want to post a normal Thankful Thursday post, but first I need a mini bitch session....

I am so TIRED of making decisions.  I HATE hearing "I don't know" or "It's up to you"  every time I ask for advice.  Then when I actually know how I want something being met with total resistance.

My car has been a total pain in the ass for almost 7 years.  I have never gone more than 3 months without something major needing to be done.  Yesterday I was driving to get one of the front wheel bearings replaced when a HUGE rock hit my windshield and chipped it.  Then after I dropped it off for the planned work they called me to say it needs much more major work done.  Something with the part that keeps the wheels on.  Of course with my car the part is MUCH more costly.  So it will be back to the shop on Monday to get it done since I can't drive on the expressways as it is, which means I need it done so I can pick P up next Friday.  The glass guy is coming to the house by noon today to fill the chip.

Work has been sooooooo slow.  I make commission so when I have no clients I make no money.  On top of that I feel somewhat mentally checked out already.  2 months left.

I ordered the wrong style wedding invites.  It is totally my own fault for not noticing the style more closely.  Annoying still.  They should be here today.  On Saturday I am taking them to a printer to see if they can cut the extra part off and use it to print our map on.  If not oh well, only I will know....and all of you.

OK that's feels better to get off my chest

I am Thankful this week for:

Tuesday with my dearest friend.  Lunch, errands, her amazing help with my registry, shopping at Oak Brook (my new happy place), and enjoying time together before both our lives change so much in these upcoming weeks and months.

Finding awesome dining room chairs.  They are more unique then the ones I first liked and $50 less!  Plus I was able to drop one off with the guy making our table and he's matching the stain to the seat and painting the pedestal black.

We found a rental house!!  I will tell the whole story and share pictures once we know 100% we are getting it.  But the house is AMAZING!!  Built in the 1800's or earlier 1900's.  Totally renovated and updated.  3 beds and 2.5 baths, plus a HUGE yard.  And it's very close to post.  P is going to look at it in person on the 14th and we are hoping to sign the lease ASAP.  I am over the moon about being back in my own space.

I picked my veil up yesterday at the bridal shop.  The sales lady that helped me came up to chat.  I was saying how I wish I had bought a smaller size dress since mine is huge on me now.  Another girl pipped in explaining (some what rudely, but informatively) that I need side seem alterations.  I called the seamstress and she agreed to do them.  I think I will feel much better and the dress will look much nicer.  I also found out that I can drop my dress and veil back off the week of the wedding to be steamed and the bodice stuffed.  The best part is they will keep it until the night before the wedding!

We are getting married in exactly 100 days!

Only 8 more days until P is here.  I. CAN. NOT. WAIT!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Finding a Nest

I have been having the strangest dreams lately.  I think it's in part that my stress is creeping up again.  I keep thinking I will forget to pack stuff for the move.  It's so silly since I will be home about about month after we move and my mom can always ship stuff to me.  I think the crazy warm weather is tricking my mind into thinking the wedding and move are much closer than they really are.  Last night I dreamt that gas was only $3.33 a gallon rather than the $4.40 it really is.  Sad, huh.

Right now P has an apartment off post.  It's 2 bedrooms, on the second floor, with a detached one car garage.  It's nice, has a huge kitchen and great living space.  But his lease is up the beginning of June and we (I) would really like a house with 3 bedrooms, a yard for Violet, a 2 car garage, and more storage space.  I have been looking on Craigslist and have found a few places that would work for us but for some reason landlords there only post places that are available NOW, not ones that are available in the future.  Totally different to what I am used to here.  So P thinks we (he) should just sign a lease soon so that we have a place secured and he can start slowly working on moving his stuff in and cleaning out the apartment.  We'll see what happens, not as easy as I thought it would be to find something from a distance as I thought it would be.

I am anxious to get out there and enjoy our life.  We found out that P will be deploying to Afghanistan sometime after the New Year.  I want to fit so much stuff in to the time we get together after the wedding.  I have put off posting this because I didn't know how to share it, if I wanted to share it, and if I wanted to continue this blog.  But there is it.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Thankful Thursday

I got a surprise call from P last night!!!  Because of work he told me Tuesday night he couldn't be able to call again until Saturday, no big deal it was only going to be 3-4 days.  Then he called last night because he found out they are only working 12 hours shifts!  So happy to get to talk!

For my health.  Life is so very precious.

It has been in the 80's all week.  Yesterday was actually 86!  The downside is I have NO summer clothes that fit.  Yes, it's amazing I have lost all this weight.  But, holy expensive to buy a whole new wardrobe.  Plus with the money funnelling out for the wedding and some of my medical bills I still have it's makes me a little panicky.

I am sticking with P90X, it's really hard but I love waking up sore in the morning.

Only 2 more weeks to go until P is here for Easter.  It's super hard going over a month without seeing each other, but I guess it's good practice.

Saturday, March 17, 2012


My blog....

I started this blog last summer right after P and I met.  I thought it would be a great way to journal through our long distance relationship.

Since our engagement it has changed a lot.  For one I am barely posting.  There is a lot of change, both exciting a scary ahead of us.  I am purposely avoiding blogging about it because I feel like my blog has become much less anonymous. 

I feel like I either need to just say what the hell and really publish posts that are about what I think and what's really going on, or I need to start a new blog where I can do that.  Not sure what is best.

On a totally other note I hit 65 pounds lost this week!!  I am feeling awesome with doing P90X (so happy P gave me all the DVD's) and with my diet.  I started making a version of a smoothie I saw on Pinterest.

Delish Smoothie
1/4 C Blackberries
1/4 C Blueberries
1/3 C Strawberries
1/3 C Chopped Pineapple
1/2 of a Banana
1 1/2 C Spinach
1 TB Ground Flax Seed
1/4 C Trop 50 OJ
Just blend everything up and enjoy

Just because I am really proud of myself here is a picture from this week 1 year ago (I had already lost about 20lbs)
Sarasota, FL March 2012        

Here is one from last weekend
Marissa's Baby Shower March 2012

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Thankful Thursday

I have done P90X for the third time this week.  I actually am loving it!  I hope I start seeing results soon.
My mom gets back from Colorado on Saturday, which means only 2 more nights of sleeping in bed with 5 dogs and getting up 5 plus times to let them out and feed them in the middle of the night.

It was 80! yesterday!!  I have the windows open and am loving the warm weather.

P will be here in 3 weeks from tomorrow.  I am so excited for Easter and his help on finishing our guest book.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Thankful Thursday

I made myself do P90X for the second time today.  It was hard, I feel like I couldn't do enough of it.  But I did it

I mastered transferring a loaned book to my Kindle.

Sunday is daylight savings.  Yay for Spring almost being here!

3 months from today is my last day of work!!  Which is sort of bittersweet.  I am going to miss my clients and doing hair everyday, but not the salon drama and silly corporate rules.

I found a moving quote that was $1,700 less then the first one I got!  And its from a major moving company! Plus they are coming the Monday after the wedding so we will have my hair styling chair to use on the wedding day here!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Thankful Thursday

It's almost Friday, which means it's almost a fresh week!

I dropped my dress off at the seamstress, only need a bustle and a seam fixed!!!  Just need to get my flabby arms gone.

Patience, perseverance, forgiveness, and a desire to keep communicating.

This isn't much but it been a long few days