Round Two

This is only the second time I have ever done a double post day.  I have mentioned how crappy this month has been....

I found out I needed to move and moved in less than 30 days, I didn't exactly have the best time in Florida, I didn't get to see P at all (not even online), I took all my stress out on him.

P has not been happy with me.  I feel so guilty because I was so wrapped up in my own unhappiness I didn't notice how much it was affecting him.  He got upset with me tonight which lead to much more open communication.

It was almost like it had to get worse to get better....  I am really proud of how I reacted.  I am a really emotional person, I get upset and am a reactor.  I stayed really calm, which meant we could actually communicate and work though our issues rather than me freaking out and crying.

I just can't wait a minute more for him to get here...  Only one more week to go :)

Thankful Thursday

• I am thankful my wonderful boyfriend has planned a very "unspecial" place for us to stay while he's home next weekend.  The hotel is gorgeous! I can wait to see it in person!

• I am thankful for 5 dogs that were quite and didn't bark all morning so I got to sleep in!

• I am thankful for some great co-workers that are open to covering days for me so I can go see P, then switching the date around 3 times!  Seriously how great are they!

• I am thankful that tomorrow is the last say of Septemberr Shitember!!

Post #2

So this is my second post today.  The first one I never published, I was writing from a more emotional place and decided to wait on it. 

I went to lunch with a friend.  She is one of the most amazing friends a girl can ask for.  She totally gets me and can objectively talk though stuff with me.

I have been a total shithead to P.  He's amazing that he still loves me!  Two months is just to long for us to go with out seeing each other.  I have had to much change and craziness for the month of September. 

Lately I am really having a power struggle with control.  I want to know and control so much in my life.  I know it is totally and completely impossible to do this.  I am the only person/thing I have any control of.  Sometimes I get so wrapped up in the future that I stop myself from enjoying all the wonderful things in the present.  I feel bad because I know I keep pressuring P to give me answers that he both may not have or is not ready to give me.

I know his trip home and some time together will be freaking great!
 And I can chill the heck out :)!

On a side note I got super cute boots today.  I can't wait to wear them, I am thinking of wearing them over skinny jeans then night I meet P's parents! Yippy!

Also pintrest is my new favorite obsession!  So many cool ideas.

Settling In

The move happened.

 It's done. 

I am pretty much totally unpacked. 

 I don't want to move again anytime soon. 

I know I will 100% be moving in the next year....

Everything went well on Saturday with the move.  I did most the heavy lifting (literally) on Friday night.  When everyone came to help it only took 30 min of loading and about an hour of unloading at my mom's.  Really the quickest move ever.  I have just been working on getting organized.  I went from a 3 bed 2 bath townhouse to a bedroom, bitty bath, walk in closet and family room.  But all in all it's starting to look nice and feeling homey.

Work has been sooooooooooooo slow.  It's sort of unusual for this time of year, I am crossing my fingers and toes it picks up later this week.  I mean come on people don't ya know I got some more shopping to do for my Milwaukee vaca :)!?!

I have been thinking lately how peoples minds can at time be their own worst enemy.  I am a total over analyzer.  I think and worry about meaningless stuff and words waaaaay to much.  I let silly things get to me. I want to make a goal to try not to do this as much.  I want to be in power over my own ways and mind.  I am sure this maybe easier said than done, but hopefully being more mind full when I start to over analyzing will be a reminder to stop.

Tonight I have the start of my monthly bunko group.  We always start back in the fall with everyone meeting out for dinner.  I am looking forward to seeing everyone and catching up.

Happy Birthday

Fall is officially here. It's my last night in my townhouse. It's P's 28th birthday.

P got his birthday box yesterday.  I made him wait until I was home from work to open it over the phone :).  I have a really busy no life and turned the inside of each of the flaps on the box into a mini scrapbook page.

This one is my favorite

I got him a bunch of random little things and cool shaving kit from the art of shaving and a polo shirt.  It was fun to hear him open all his gifts.  I wish I could have been there with him, hopefully next year. 

He'll be here 2 weeks from today, woooowhoooo!! 

So my next post with be after the move, crossing my fingers it goes quickly and smoothly!

A side note I CAN NOT figure out how to comment on my own blog, Joanna I wan't to comment and can't :)

What to blog about....

I haven't been posting very much lately because I feel like I have a total lack of stuff going on.  I'm like 99.9999% packed.  Just have to do some minor stuff on Friday and clean up.  I'm just enjoying the last few days here.

P finally bought his ticket home, so it is for sure he'll be here in a little over 2 weeks (SO happy).  It's funny because I am the total planner but he is all over the planning for when he's home.  It's cute.  I feel (a little) bad because I don't have much input on what we do.... 1.because I am not from Milwaukee so I don't really know places 2.I don't care, I just want to be with him. 

I mailed off P's birthday box yesterday.  We were originally planning on me coming to visit him this weekend, but he has to work on Saturday so it wouldn't really have been worth the trip.  I am really excited for him to get the box and open everything.  I will post more about what I sent once he opens everything.

Sorry for my very not exciting life....

Not much going on

Today was uber, super, duper slow at work.  I got sent home early which is sorta a bummer. 

I came up with a cute idea for P's birthday box, it's pretty amazing.  I had some Michael's coupons so my mom and I went to get some supplies.  I ended up getting nothing other than a stamp....  But my mom remembered she has a huge crate of scrap booking stuff which she let me help myself to, SCORE!  I can't wait for him to get it!

I don't have much else to say.  LOL  I went shopping and to dinner last night.  Shopping was great but dinner was meh!  We went to Cheese Cake Factory which was waaaay more expensive then I remembered and the carrot cake was just ok.  We made plans to do some Christmas shopping together :)

  My life is finally back to not being exciting, which is a good thing!