Thankful Thursday

Sorry for not posting in over a week!!  Trust me no one would have wanted to hear me last Thursday after my upper GI scope.  Lets just say the drugs won.  P was in the field and I could only inform him of what was going on via text.  Texting is not a great form of communication when one person is very drugged up and emotional :)

We did get some answers from the test.  Basically nothing is wrong with my stomach or GI system, but all this "stress"  they seem to think I have is what's causing me all this pain and sickness.  So I am now on some more stuff to help control that and have actually eaten really food in the past week.  I even had PIZZA!! YUMMY!

So this week I am so thankful for.....

This warm snow free winter.  I think it makes everyone happier

P working hard!  Not only had his demanding job but at working on our guest list.

All the big stuff for the wedding is DONE!  All I have now is the fun little details.

I meet with the priest and we are for sure getting married in the Church.  All we have to do for Pre Cana is NFP, which I am doing mine tomorrow night.  I was dreading it, but I listened to the CD portion today and actually found it very interesting.  I'm still not excited to sit in a class for 3.5 hours (on a Friday night) about having sex as a married couple alone....but that's life :)

I am so thankful for awesome bridesmaids that are headed on a shoe search with me on Saturday!  I am sure we will have sooooo much fun!

Sugar and Spice

I am so nearly done getting ready for Christmas.  This weekend my mom and I did all of our cookies.

Frosted Sugar Cookies

Butter Cookies, Apricot and Raspberry Linzor Tortes (my Oma's recipe)

Yes we have 2 coffee pots!

Yesterday and today I wanted to wrap up all the little last minute things I still needed. Ran to Hallmark, Target, and World Market.  My closest friend came over today for a visit.  We colored her hair and had lunch.  I made Potato Spinach Smoked Turkey Sausage Soup using a Bear Creek soup starter.  I also made a loaf of whole wheat beer bread.  She brought a delish salad.

I also managed to make 2 gallons of white chocolate chex mix and 4.5 gallons of savory chex mix.  And wrapped all my Christmas gifts.

Sorry for the blurry pic!

P will be her in 4 days and I don't want to have to worry about getting Christmas stuff done then, just be able to enjoy our time together.  I'll just have a few appetizers, bread, and a breakfast casserole to make, and I know he'll help.  

As for the rest of the week I have the house to myself. My mom and Steve are in Florida until Sunday.  I plan on my usual pre-P prep and finally doing laundry since we got the new washer today.

My head seems to always spin near the holidays.  But somehow it all gets done.

Violet resting after her "paw-i-cure"

The Countdown

I always start a serious countdown once I am 10 days from seeing P.  And today my friends is that day! 

10 days until a HUGE kiss and hug

10 days until cooking together

10 days until relaxing next to each other

10 days until a romantic winery trip

10 days until we visit a very old historic cider mill

10 days until utter happiness

{please excuse me I know I am a cheese ball}

In the mean time I am trying to search out groupon and  living social to find a deal for a boot camp.  In the past year-ish I have lost about 45lbs and have sort of hit a plateau.  I would love to kick start loosing more weight and also get more toned.  On top of all of that it would help fill some empty time and maybe help with my HIGH stress levels.  Hopefully I can find one some time this week :)

Burrrr!

It's cold, damp and windy here!! I officially am over living at my mom's house (it hasn't even been a month)!  I want the heat on and peace and quite.

I am really sorry to sound so pissy but I hate it here.  I keep trying to remember that it's better for P's and my unknown future.  But this afternoon I just want to say "F It" and rent an apartment tomorrow! 

It's only been a week and I miss P like crazy, I just want to be near him even if it was at least driving distance. 

 I miss my townhouse and my own space. 

I miss my couch and having my own kitchen. 

I miss my double sink bathroom.  

I miss my own thermostat! 

I miss my independence. 

But most of all I miss P tonight!

Ok so I am feeling much better :)!  Actually Skyped with P tonight.  We had tried on Saturday night with a bad connection.  I was able to use my mom's iPad tonight!  It was really cool to see each others faces.  I felt like I had the hugest smile the whole time!!  Another amazing thing is we have plans locked down for Thanksgiving!!  He has a Crack of Dawn flight in to Chicago and then we are off for two days in Indiana to see his family.  We also talked about stopping by his Alma Mater on the way back to Chicago.  Really excited to spend our first holiday together.

exhausted

I'm exhausted tonight!  I have been really busy at work and am working extra hours since I took off last weekend for my weekend with P.  The money is great and I never mind having to put in extra hours if the payoff is time with P :)! 

I felt bad because I left work early today.  My stomach has been crazy for the past 4 months.  I couldn't eat all day and was in so much pain.  I keep blaming it on some on going stress.  I tried to lay down and relax when I got home, but I am so bad at that.  So I made:  roasted pumpkin for soup and freezing, pumpkin soup, pumpkin spice cupcakes with cream cheese frosting, cranberry sauce, beer bread.  Lots of yummy food for the week.  Hopefully I get my appetite back and can eat some!

I am really excited to have my first ever Skye date tonight!  P got Internet and I have my new web cam.  I am a dork and am planning on fixing my make-up and hair before we start, hahaha!  I am really missing a lot this weekend.  I think because I keep thinking that a week ago we were together and it was so amazing!

Fourty Eight

In less than 48 hours P and I will be in Wisconsin enjoying our mini vacation!  I am so excited!!  I had a bit of unrelated stress rise up in the past day, but knowing I am getting away so soon is helping me push it out of my mind.

The weather is so warm right now.  It's going to be warm and sunny all weekend.  Plus all the leaves are changing, soooo pretty.

I wish I had more to blog about....  I am just doing my last minute stuff like packing, painting my nails, and doing a face mask before I see the boyfriend :)

I can't wait to post about all the fun stuff we do and some photos.

October, Wonderful October

I have been waiting for this day for 30 days! 

Last night I was exhausted from a finally really busy day at work and from the emotions from the last week.  I went to bed really super early.  P called to say hi so I of course chatted with him.  It was wonderful.  We laughed and I felt so happy :)!  I thought I would catch up on some TV but ended up passing out again....12 hours later I woke up feeling fabulous, today feels like the fresh start I have been waiting for.  Happiness and joy are ahead :)

Today is such a gorgeous way to start October.  It's crisp, sunny, and I can see so many pretty colors from my view blogging at my mom's kitchen table.  The house is soooooo quite and peaceful.  I love quietness. 

My mom and Steve went to their second home for the night last night so there are four less dogs here today.  Violet is totally confessed.  She ran upstairs this morning (just like every morning) like a crazy beast looking for all the dogs to get them rilled up.  She ran to my mom's room, she ran around the family room, I shooed her out to the yard yelling after her "sorry ViVi the pups are not here"!  She keeps going in and out searching for them....

Today I have a fun day of shopping ahead.  I tried a bunch of outfits on last night for the evenings when P is home.  I need a few more things and another pair of jeans.  Then movies tonight with another friend!

Round Two

This is only the second time I have ever done a double post day.  I have mentioned how crappy this month has been....

I found out I needed to move and moved in less than 30 days, I didn't exactly have the best time in Florida, I didn't get to see P at all (not even online), I took all my stress out on him.

P has not been happy with me.  I feel so guilty because I was so wrapped up in my own unhappiness I didn't notice how much it was affecting him.  He got upset with me tonight which lead to much more open communication.

It was almost like it had to get worse to get better....  I am really proud of how I reacted.  I am a really emotional person, I get upset and am a reactor.  I stayed really calm, which meant we could actually communicate and work though our issues rather than me freaking out and crying.

I just can't wait a minute more for him to get here...  Only one more week to go :)